It feels honestly insane that I haven't posted another blog entry since my first one like, nine months ago lol. When I first started this site, I had been thinking to myself that it'd be a really good place to start like, a weekly journal, recap the things that I did and how I was feeling and yadda yadda whatever, but clearly a week is far too short of a timeframe. I think a month would do much better.
I think also the title bears some clarification: At the start of this year, much like everyone else I'm sure, I had come up with my New Year's resolutions and plans for my 2025, but, also I'm sure like everyone else, by about mid-January that was starting to feel like an uphill battle. Winter is our busy season at work and I was coming home exhausted and depressed and doing things I *enjoyed* took too much energy, let alone trying to start something new. So I made the decision for myself that the new year starts in March. Its warmer, the sun is out longer, all I have to get through is daylight savings kicking my ass and then we're in the clear! So happy first month of the new year everyone!
As for my resolutions? Well...lol. I've had the same resolution for the past, oh man its gotta be like four years now: socialize more. I'm a homebody, to what is likely an almost unhealthy degree, but I like being home and being around people is draining, so setting my goal as "Go Out And See Your Friends" is always a really safe bet. And I've been getting better with each year! So that's good! Last year was a lot of just saying yes to things that were happening around me and building my confidence hanging out with people and going to new places. I've found new friends in some of my gf's coworkers and done lots of exciting new things, but now what I really need is staying power! So this year is about making plans on my own! Reaching out, getting hangs going with the people I wanna be hanging out with!
Obviously, its just about April, and while I don't have much to report in terms of like, the reaching out part of my socializing journey, but I did do actually a lot of stuff! Two of my friends from highschool got legally married earlier this month and I got to be a witness (their wedding is in October :3), we had a movie watch party at our place with some of those friends I made thru my gf, we went and saw Mickey 17 in theaters with them, too! I accidentally stumbled upon a crafting group at the library that I'm excited to meet up with again, I've been playing Fortnite with the crew on voice coms when the mood strikes and hanging out and chatting sometimes even when it doesn't. I've been making an effort to reach out and share stuff that's been happening in my sphere with a group of friends I'm not like, super close with, but want to be! It's a lot of very good moves! These last two weeks I've been pretty cooped up at home, but I think I've rested sufficiently and am ready to get more plans moving!
This coming month I want to make some dinner plans with people. One of my besties also just moved into a new place and I've been meaning to reach out to come see it! It's another friend's birthday just later this week and we're going out. Movies are coming out that we're planning to see in theaters with people! So things are in the works! And I'm very excited about it!
In other news from this month, my family got a new cat! It's a lot sooner that any of us really would have wanted (we lost the last of our three cats from my teenage years in Mid-January), but my parents have some friends who are moving and couldn't take her with, so she's been entrusted to mom's care! She's part Persian, part Munchkin, and is apparently some designer breed that was flown in from Canada, but none of that really matters to us. What's important is that she's the CUTEST and SWEETEST little thing in the world. Mom sends me pictures almost daily of her and she's stuck to mom's side like glue. It's honestly so sweet ;w; We've renamed her Miss Penelope and she is a wonderful little angel.
I've been doing a lot of stuff this month to like, fix shit in my space. At the end of last month we finally got around to replacing one of my worn out brake rotors on my car (which, as an aside, was a whole fiasco. I got this car off Craigslist and the previous owner did not give me the radio code or, apparently, the socket key. So I go over to my parents and say "dear dad, my brakes sound like shit, can we please take a peep at them?" and roll up to Autozone like, twenty minutes later to buy new pads and rotors. We get home, its go time, I've got the impact wrench and its just, Not Taking This Nut Out. Dad asks if I have the key, obvi I don't, so we go back to Autozone to try and get smthn to pry this thing off, buy one that's too big, BACK to Autozone, buy two more things, neither work, BACK AGAIN to return both, and then I had to just head home bc dad had to order a kit off Amazon to finally get this shit out. Such a pain), which meant that I felt good enough to go get my oil and transmission fluid changed right at the start of the month. I got us actual curtains for our living room and got blackout ones to help keep our unit cool in the summertime. I got new under sink organizers so our bathroom cabinet is easier to get into now! At work I finally took on a big organizing project that I'd been putting off! And tonight I finally have an appointment to get my damn tire repaired, since its gone flat three times within the last month and a half, and I finally noticed this weekend that it has a massive nail in it. There's still lots to be done, but it feels rlly good to get a good chunk of it started!
I've got a tendency to be really shortsighted. That's part of why I wanted to start doing something like this, but paper journalling never worked for me and posting on social media always felt too like, exposing. When I first started writing all of this out I had thought to myself "this month has been really boring. I haven't done all that much, I've mostly been at home or wasting my money buying stupid shit." but in actuality, I've gotten a lot done? I hung out with far more people than I remembered at a glance, a lot of my spending wasn't actually all that bad, and I was weirdly productive for what felt like a very hands off kind of month.
I dunno. I think something like this might be good for me.
Posted on March 31st, 2025, around 10.30am